I’m working on a
children’s biography of the author, Nobel Prize winner and Soviet dissident
Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn. While many know him for “The Gulag Archipelago,” he
was a prolific writer whose “miniatures” or prose poems have much to say and
aren’t that well known in the West. In fact, these are among my favorite
writings of Solzhenitsyn.
Instead of my usual
post, I selected one his miniatures because it addresses the universal fear of
aging and dying, a situation many with chronic conditions think about. It should be noted that Solzhenitsyn had
considerable experience with serious disease as he developed cancer first at 34,
while he was a prisoner in the gulag, and again several years later when he was
living in forced exile
If you are not
familiar with Solzhenitsyn, following the prose poem, I’ve included a variety
of resources.
The following
miniature, Growing Old, was written when Solzhenitsyn was in his late
70’s.
For all that has been written about death’s
horrors, what an organic link death is in the chain of life, when it comes
without violence!
I remember a Greek poet I knew in the labor
camps. He was still in his thirties but not long for this world. Yet his
gentle, wistful smile betrayed no fear of death. This amazed me. Be, he told
me, “Before the onset of death we go through an inner process of preparations,
we grow and mature to meet it-and then it no longer holds any terror for us.”
Barely a year was to pass before-at
thirty-four years of age-I experienced the same thing at first hand. Month by
month, week by week, as I drew ever nearer to death and adopted to it-my
readiness and resignation outstripped that of my own body.
How much easier it is, then, how much more
receptive we are to death, when advancing years guide us softly to our end.
Aging thus is in no sense a punishment from on high, but brings its own
blessings and a warmth of colors all its own.
There is warmth in watching little children
at play, seeing them gain in strength and character. There is even warmth to be
drawn from the waning of your own strength compared with the past-just to think
how sturdy I once used to be! You can no longer get through a whole day’s work
at a stretch but how good it is to slip in the brief oblivion of sleep, and
what a gift to wake once more to the clarity of your second or third morning of
the day. And your spirit can find delight in limiting your intake of food, in
abandoning the pursuit of novel flavors. You are still of this life, yet you
are rising above the material plane. The shrill cry of the tomtits in a
snow-clad wood in early spring holds twice the charm, for soon you will hear it
no more-so listen to your heart’s content! And what an inalienable treasure
your memories prove! This is something the young are denied, but you carry them
all with you, unfailingly and a living portion of them calls upon you each
day-during the infinitely slow transition from night to day, and again from day
to night.
Growing old serenely is not a downhill path,
but an ascent.
But, Lord spare us from an old age racked by
poverty and cold.
The fate to which we have consigned so very,
very many....
Resources
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Prose Poetry
Books
About Solzhenitsyn
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